Writing is a gift…

I thought maybe I just woke up feeling off today, but instead I’m seeing it now as more of an awakening.

After letting the ducks out and providing feed for them and the cats…and chopping ice again *sigh*…I came back in, went in my room and laid on the bed. I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. This is often the case in the mornings…a definite lack of motivation. When I finally got hungry, I went into the kitchen to make some breakfast.

I came up with this: eggs and tomatoes, hash browns and tea. It was very good.

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I think I have mentioned eggs and tomatoes before. It’s something my mom used to make and I always liked it. You simply poach eggs in tomatoes…puree in this case…and cook them until hard. I prefer them hard, but you can cook them to your desired consistency. I think they have a better flavor to match the tomato when they are cooked hard.

The tomatoes are from my garden. I cooked down all my extra and end of season tomatoes to make the most amazing puree we’ve ever had. We have used this in lots of dishes involving pasta, soups, etc… When you make your own puree from a variety of tomatoes (mine were all heirloom) it’s amazing how much flavor you get. Like no tomatoes you’ve ever tasted before.

I’m not into canning, so all my puree was frozen. I still have about 2 gallons left, I think. I need to use it up, since a new growing season is about to begin.

The hash brown was really good. I discovered a year or two ago that hash browns go great with eggs and tomatoes. I used to make drop biscuits to go with them, but the hash browns taste so much better.

I cooked this one in bacon grease. Yep, bacon grease. Lately I feel a bit put off by all the vegetable oils that have been pushed upon us, even coconut oil. When I first started learning about it probably 8 years ago now, it was being sold as the cure-all for all ills. Like most supplements and special foods I have tried over the years, it wasn’t a cure-all. And lately I find myself hesitant to cook with it. It was pushed as the best oil to cook in, but new information has come out about how you should keep it at a low temperature otherwise it turns into a bad oil.

This is fine. I will continue to use it in things because it is a good oil. But I am feeling more comfortable going back to animal fats like butter and bacon grease for some things. For starters, they just taste better. That hash brown reminded me of the feeling I get when eating really good soul food, which is traditionally full of animal fat. It’s like this amazing comfort comes over you, and your body just soaks it up.

Oils are important in our diet. Oils are how the body makes hormones. No wonder people’s hormones are so screwed up these days after believing all the lies the food industry has sold us.

Now, to switch gears, I thought I would share from the alcohol ink workshop I took in Norman, Oklahoma last month. Norman is about 2 1/2 hours drive south.

The workshop was held at the Whispering Willows Art Gallery on Main. The instructor was very well-prepared and had everyone’s work station set up upon arrival.

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I failed to get a photo of her example art, the one we were all trying to mimic. It was really beautiful, a forest surrounded by hills and a pond. I signed up for the class because her class description promised we would make that piece of art. I thought it was fool-proof. Wrong.

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The instructor, Kat, is a really good artist. On my first trip to this gallery I bought a piece of her alcohol ink artwork. It is really gorgeous, as you can see.

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As it turns out, the most fun I had was talking to the woman who sat next to me, the young woman pictured above. She is also a really good artist and has oil painting experience. Her end result was the best in the class, I thought, although she left early and I was unable to get a photo of hers.

Several others allowed me to take photos of their paintings…

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And, here is mine…

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In the end, it turned out much too red and green for my taste. Kat’s original was full of purples and greens, which I really loved. Mine turned out nothing like hers, nor did any of the others for that matter, which is fine. But I think this was it for me as far as trying to paint goes. I just don’t have what it takes.

Which brings me to my next topic. I don’t think I have what it takes to write a blog, either. Whether it’s that ability to connect with people or tell a good story or have a lot to give and share with others, I just don’t think this is the right venue for me.

I do enjoy writing, a lot. It’s always been a big part of who I am. But the aim of this blog was to share of myself, some of my life and my love of writing and creating. I have done that for over a year now.

I realize it takes a long time to build an audience online, but those who have a real knack for it really seem to take off. And, I am fine not being that person. I have enjoyed trying and sharing what I have here, but I think I’m done.

Maybe now is a time for me to really focus on what my real goals are. I don’t even know how I feel now about stitching. It has been a love of mine for a long time in all its various forms. But so often these days I just feel like I’m not getting any where. Perhaps I am comparing too much, but whatever I was looking for in the way of something clicking for me just never happened.

If I continue stitching, I want to find the way that works for me. I want to find a way that is my own creation and not a mimicking of someone else’s work. I think honing your craft after someone else’s work is a good way to learn. After all, it’s what all the great masters did…Rodin comes to mind. They had schools and acolytes and they taught what they knew. Some people had what it took and some didn’t.

So, for now, I think I am going to stop blogging for a while, unless I really have something special and of interest to share. Maybe if I have a new direction. I still see writing as a gift and always will, whether it’s the therapeutic act of writing or providing something for someone to read.

But there are other things I need to write at the moment, like my books, which are well underway. And the truth is that here, on June Wildflower, I have failed to gain an audience in the 16 months or so I have been writing.

I do appreciate all those who have visited my blog and those who have taken the time to comment. But, for now, I feel I’m done with this little venture. Maybe I’ll try it again sometime.

Take care.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2 Comments Add yours

  1. grace Maestas says:

    i think we write blogs mostly for love of writing and also for
    ourselves…as a journal?

    1. June Wildflower says:

      Yes, absolutely. This has definitely been an online diary for me, a way to get thoughts out of my head. It has been very fun. I may revisit the blog again. In the meantime, gardening is about to begin. When I’m here I just want to have something meaningful and fun to share. A break and then coming back fresh may be in order. 🙂

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